My friend told me that she was down on herself because of some things she was thinking about. So I tried to help her out the best i could through story. Everything I say in this is in bold, and everything I say in this is true. I have come to know this over the years. I just don’t know a better way to put it to words, so here it is. 

There once was a girl named Daniella. Daniella was a girl who saw nothing but the best in everyone. She would spend her days and nights thinking about why the world was so full of hate, and greed, and sadness. One day, she met a young man named Christian. Christian knew exactly how she felt, because he as well would sit up every single night and wonder how we’ve survived this long as humans. Christian didn’t know how to explain to her that everything would be alright, and that the only thing that matters is the present. What happened in the past, no matter how big or life changing, it is in the past. He explained to her through stories that nothing can change it. The only thing you can change is the future, and the only way to do that is to focus on the present. He told her that if we spend our whole lives hung up on the past, we would never have evolved as humans. He explained that he has found the way to happiness in human form. And that is being comfortable with the fact that without a past, one cannot have a future. Everything that has happened up to right now has happened so she could live for today. live for right now. It’s fate. Destiny. Life. Whatever you call it. It’s now. And you have to embrace it. She smiled all night thinking about the fact that everything she was sad about, she no longer needed to be sad about. Ever again! She now understands that the key to life is understanding that it is forever moving forward, and those who look back are usually the ones that don’t get to see the brightest future.

I fear the past has changed me for the worse

knowing you, I don’t think it has. But the main problem that you are facing is just that… fear. You shouldn’t fear anything in life. Not even death. The reason you do is because that’s how we are raised. Through TV, School, Movies, Games, work, etc. etc., we are raised to have fear for our future, because fear is the easiest way to control anyone to do anything. And that goes for everything! Think about it. You may run fast, but if you’re being chased by a fucking cheetah, you’re going to run much much faster. Media has been trying to strike fear into our hearts for years! For instance, in the new batman, he says that the only way to conquer life, is to fear death. They say that if you fear death, you work harder to get away from it. That’s bullshit. If you fear death, it’s going to cloak your footsteps for the rest of your life. To conquer life, you must realize that the only way to live, is to live happy. There are two basic emotions in this life. Love and fear. Every other emotion branches off of these two in some way or another. How much can you really say that you know about love? Next to nothing, right? Why didn’t they teach us about love in school? Why, when things like 911 and columbine happen, are we supposed to be scared? When really, we should all be rejoicing that more people didn’t get hurt, and that the world, as well as the human race, are still standing. It’s just a matter of perspective. Once you learn to conquer fear with love, you will never feel sadness towards your own life ever again, and that is a promise.

As humans, our goal is to make the future for our children, and for humankind a comfortable place to live. without fear, or greed, or hate for one another.

but how do you get the fear to stop im scared to meet people to love people to trust people enough to get to know me I m afraid I wont get better and i wont be able to care about anyone im mean sure it was nice for awhile to not give a damn about others after i went so long caring so much but what if i cant ever care for anyone again i mean i dont have enough confidence in myself to trust i will be a good friend because i know I’ve made a mess of old friend ships what if im just not worthy enough to be around the people i want to surround myself with

the thing is that you don’t need anyone on this earth other than yourself. You are the only person that can make YOU happy. It’s something that you have to look deep down inside to find. And I’m not talking about I just got a new game happy. I’m talking an everlasting, filling happiness, that will constantly warm your heart. When, not if, but when this world goes to shit, the only thing you need to worry about is your own life. You need to hang on the word “survive” like it is your god given duty. How can you trust your life in someone else’s hands when the only thing that matters to them is their own life. You can’t! You have to come to terms with living for yourself, and nobody else. When the world ends, nobody will have anybody to fall back on. It just takes a while to realize that. the feeling that you get when you finally do realize it is almost overwhelming. You don’t know how you have ever felt different. It’s just about opening your mind up and realizing that what you have been taught your whole life are lies, put in place to distract you from the big picture. From reality. To look past these lies and create your own future, your own truth, is to finally become human, and to finally become happy. We were raised to think that happiness is a smile on someone face. I think you know just as well as i do that 9 times out of 10, that smile that you put on your face is fake. It’s just to make everyone around you think that you are okay, because you know deep down that these people can not help you become happy. Happiness comes from deep down inside all of us. Wanna know why we aren’t taught that in school? Because if everyone in the world thought like me, the government wouldn’t have nearly as much money or power as it does.

You say that you think too much, when really, the key part of finding your own inner happiness, is thinking. That little voice in your head that is reading you everything that i am typing is your guide. follow that voice. listen to that voice. It is the only thing connecting the thoughts in your brain to your consciousness, and to let that go, is to become a slave to a system that was put in place hundreds of years ago.

Do you understand the things that I’m saying to you?

Read these words over and over until every single one means something to you. I can promise you will find truth within yourself, which is the very first step on this long road to finding happiness.

the things that I am seeing right now. nothing is where it’s supposed to be. I know how to describe it so well, but I can’t get it to words. Nothing I say can describe the wonderous beauty of what is surrounding me. they are carrying me off. Laying me on a field of grass. Winds                                        the sea, a crack in the door. the dimness. almost a relaxing. nothing is coming out right. but brighter. and brighter. and deeper. and wider. there is nothing but it. it’s here. it’s fucking here.